Manifesting Magic
I am sometimes amazed and always grateful when something that I desire seemingly comes to me out of the blue. After getting home from Argentina, I really wanted to take my dancing to the next level and be able to actually do the things I had been learning in a social dance situation. It is one thing practicing moves in class with the guys at my level especially since we know what we move we are suppose to be doing in a particular class. It is another thing entirely, to be able to dance well on the social dance floor with men I don’t know, who are all so different, and to know what I am being led to do.
I felt like I was in a kind of vicious circle. Tango is rather old school and typically the men ask the women to dance. And everyone wants to dance with better dancers so its hard, at first to get asked to dance. But then, when I did get asked by someone really good, I got anxious and so didn’t dance as well as I could. The anxiety I was experiencing in those situations was was interfering with my being able to get the experience I wanted.
I could have just moped about it but I knew that wasn’t going to get my goals. So, what I did instead was acknowledge to myself and others that I wanted to get more confidence dancing. I saw it in my mind that I wanted it and I could have it. I considered some ideas of how I could get it, one being having some private sessions with some good teachers (see Dancing My confidence Up). I talked about the issues of the waiting to be asked to dance with a lot of women. that was very interesting. But basically I just had it in my mind what I wanted to receive.
So what happened? Well as I wrote in Priceless, Last week when a song I really liked came on I got the nerve up to go ask one of the most persnickety dancers I know to dance and since I knew and loved the music I relaxed and did great. And then the other night, a second thing occurred.
There is typically a milonga at Javaology once a month on Wednesday night. Since it could not be held there this month some people asked if it could be held at my place. I was open to it if they would handle all of the details. Duane and I just had to get the table and rug moved out of the way to make the dance floor and voila we had a milonga here. Well, it turned out to be just magical.
About 30 people showed up and they just happened to be some of the most excellent dancers around. We had so much fun, talking and dancing and dancing and talking until about 1:30 AM (it was supposed to be over at 11:00). In one night I was able to dance multiple times with some of the guys that I had been wanting to dance with and I could feel myself over the night getting more and more comfortable. It was amazing. It is good to get those reminders that when I acknowledge something I want and stay open to receiving it in whatever way shape or form it comes, it often comes to me in a that I never even dreamed of.
